anyhoo, what have I been doing?
Well, I clean sweeped my room at my parents' house (exciting I know). I got rid of at least half of my stuff. Anyone who's going to be in the Moorhead area on May 1 should stop by my house for the rummage sale. I'm parting with a bunch of DVDs, CDs, VHS tapes, audio cassettes and clothes (no Buffy shirts, sorry!) I got all new furniture and stuff, so good things are good and all that jazz. New carpet too. I love new carpet smell.
So I've been going home every weekend to work on the room and enjoy the fruits of my labor (and also shower, 'cause I'm crazy tired of dorm shower). I'm not sure why, but my parents both seem incredibly mad at me. It could be because I'm sort of flunking out of school, although they don't know that. It could be because I just dropped a ton of $$ on my new hair extensions. It could be because I'm just a tremendous disappointment in all categories. Either way, they hate me. Whatever.
I'm trying to stop pleasing people so much. Or rather, trying to please people. I'm trying to stop being so upset over it when they are upset with me. I don't know why it bothers me so much, but when Megan's tired and tells me to go away, it hurts me. It hurts me more than the unthinking words of a teenager should. I don't know why. It just does.
At least Xander loves me. Spike too. And Giles.
Fernando the Lion-Hearted